I've been performing in public and sharing my art work for about 8 years now and the one question I always get asked is "How are you able to write so quickly and emotionally?" Truth is I've never really been honest with anyone about it because I believe it's a secret that is too complexed…

Fitting In or Standing Out?

Dr Seuss wrote a quote.. "Why fit in when you were born to stand out?" And that quote has stuck with me for a very long time but now I'm at a point in my life where I question the logic behind it. My whole life, I've never really stood out. Because of my anxiety…

MY ANTHEM

I don't usually post poetry on here but I actually like this one that I wrote.. • MY ANTHEM •  My anthem is called Lights but I'm trapped in the dark,I'm smoking daily, but I just can't find that spark,I've spent my whole life alone that's no entry on the ark, So I want to leave,…

What is depression?

Everyone that I've met has a different opinion on what depression is or what it feels like to them yet when you're truly struggling no one seems to fully understand. My depression varies. Sometimes I can socialise, sometimes I can't. Sometimes I can eat, sometimes I can't. Sometimes I can see the light and sometimes…

Following Your Heart

For as long as I can remember I've always been told to follow my heart and for the majority of my life I have but at 23 I've realised that following your heart only gets you into trouble. We all long and hope for love in our lives. I don't mean friendships that have last…

BPD & Relationships

BPD is an abbreviation of Borderline Personality Disorder or another term for it would be EUPD which stands for Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder. This means that I have a history of behaving abnormally because of unstable past relationships with family, friends and partners. There's a constant worry of abandonment and it means I'd do anything…

A quick recap!

So if you’ve been around me lately or you’ve been reading these blogs then you’ll know this past week has been hell for me and I’ve not actually had anything positive to post about until tonight. I’ve been made to look over my shoulder by so called friends. I also got attached to a girl…

Why me?

Why me? Is one of the questions I ask myself all of the time. I’m not saying I deserve better than most of the population however I am saying that it seems like I have the worst luck! Okay there are people out there that are homeless, starving, poor and in a worse state than…

It’s getting bad again..

The worst thing about my mental health is that I’m far too aware of my mood and my actions. I’m aware of my triggers, I know exactly what my mind and body does in certain situations, I know which people in my life are causing the problems and I know who in my life is…

Right or Wrong?

No matter what I write about, it’s not my way of saying that I’m right and the other people are wrong. It’s just my way of saying how I feel. Whenever I try to do the right thing it always ends up being wrong. I protect myself when I’m scared and I get labelled a…